Life is great, I have the home of my dreams and the boyfriend that I dont deserve!  pics:

my freaking backyard!! 

Scott Onyx and I 

Now for some other pics ... enjoy !

Life sure has a way of taking you on a wild ride. I feel like I am constantly on a roller coaster ...and its the kind that I have never been on and I dont know what to expect... sometimes its amazing sometimes it crazy and scary. I dont care anymore ... I have decided I am going to now just follow my heart, do what i love and what makes me happy. I am in a little pause point in my life ... where I am left waiting for something else to happen. I hate my living situation and would love to have my own place, but its not gonna happen right now so I will save and wait for the future... and I hate this fucking job more then anything in the world ... but its a good job and I can actually deal with it. So this leaves me with being the adult ... I guess thats what they call it. Work at a place that you hate and do things you dont like to be close to the ones you love. Try to make the best of it .... yippie skippie! 

Chaos

Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response

We've all been there but, you know now, love hurts. You'll understand that better soon enough. But this time, it's your turn. So suffer and live it, because believe it or not, kid, he aint the only force pumping life through them veins. You got heart.

Yeah, there were boys before you, but whats that matter? Each guy before that I was once interested in, didn't work out and led me to you. Don't worry about them because you're the one I'm with now. Not them.

She debated leaving. He was a reason to stay, but he was also a reason to go. He was confusing her, playing with her emotions and she needed to be set free. Until he told her he missed her, but he totally understood. Then she never wanted to leave again.

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There's a big difference between the things you remember & those you cant forget

We must hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know,
and lose in order to gain because some lessons in life, are best learned through pain.

sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.

A relationship is about two people
who maintain their own lives but create another one together

We only regret the chances we didn't take,
the relationships we were afraid to have,
and the decisions we waited too long to make.

Good relationships don't just happen.
They take time, patience, and two people who truly want to be together.

Don’t waste your time looking back on what you’ve lost.
Life is not meant to be traveled backwards

It's absurd, who you love and why,
and how you can't turn it off when you desperately want to.

I wanted you to throw rocks at my window, not at my heart.

If you are depressed then you're living in the past.
If you are anxious then you're living in the future.
If you are at peace then you're living in the present.

My life has its flaws, but it's the only one I got. I'm going to hold my head high, look on the bright side, and smile even when I want to cry; because I'm not letting anyone or anything bring me down

There are two reasons why people don't talk about something: Either it doesn't mean anything to them, or it means everything

I have made the decision to move to lincoln ... I know a lot of you already know this, well the ones that are close to me anyways ... I am excited/scared and ready to do this move because this town has just brought me down... althoguth i know it has been good for grandma. I need to be claire again... I miss me! Roman gets out soon, im beyond excited about that, I kinda feel like hes the only one that gives a shit about me anymore since im the only one thats showing him love while hes locked up .... sad that I dont have any real friends that will show me love ever. I dont feel like I have a best friend anymore... yeah I need to get out of this rut I know so I am not gonna whine ... heres some lovelyness

Love Peace and Chaos

i'm not insecure. i've been through way too much shit to be insecure. i've got huge balls, but i've been humbled. that makes you grateful for every day you have.

Sometimes you've got to run away to see who will run after you. Sometimes you've got to talk quieter to see who's really listening. Sometimes you've got to step up to fight only to see who's standing by your side. Sometimes you've got to make a wrong decision only to see who's there to help you fix it. Sometimes you've got to let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you.

You should never forget about the past, everything happens for a reason.
Instead learn from the past, learn from your mistakes and learn from every experience in life.
Never forget those that have changed you either for the good or the bad
because they have made you who you are.
Always remember that life is meant to be tough, to challenge you, and to make you stronger.

I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.

I'm never letting this one go. Because certain people enter our lives at the most peculiar times, for the most beautiful reasons. They seem to make such perfect impressions while leaving behind an everlasting impact. Some of the best things in life appear when you least expect them. Things you can never forget.

This is life. People will screw you over. You’ll fight with your family. You’ll witness things that will change you forever. You’ll blame new lovers for things old lovers did. You’ll lose best friends you thought would always be there.  You’ll come to realize that everyone has a past. You’ll cry, you’ll laugh, & you’ll embarrass yourself. But then, you’ll find your very own moment where none of that matters; where you can sit back & realize that shit happens to the people who can handle it & that this is who you are,  & that no one should want to change you, including yourself.

Does your ass ever get jealous of the shit that comes out of your mouth?

Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.

Now why don’t you just shut that blowjob factory you call your mouth?

Shut your mouth skank. Just because you start the shit, doesnt mean you are the shit.

Dear optimists & pessimists, either way, the glass has the same amount of liquid. Sincerely, a realist.

I don’t care if you’re the king of england. You say anything about my best friend and you’re going down like London Bridge.

Roses are red, violets are blue, you can’t spell SLUT without U.

Don't judge a book by its cover nor a person by their scars.

Life would be perfect if, some girls had mute buttons, some guys had edit buttons, bad times had fast forward buttons, and good times had pause buttons.

Karma has more balls then me, and is by far a much bigger bitch than I could ever be. So I have no doubt in my mind, that you will get exactly what you deserve.

Here’s to the girls. The girls that keep a smile even though they’re going through hell. That keep their head high, even though they’d rather be elsewhere. That give amazing advice, but can’t seem to follow it themselves. That can make anyone laugh, but herself. Here’s to you.

Dear heart, fall in love when you're ready, not when you're lonely.

 I love you has 8 letters, but so does bullshit.

Happiness is a lifestyle. Love is a journey. Sadness is a decision.

Single is not just a status. It's actually a word that
 best describes a person who is strong enough to live
 and enjoy life without having to depend on others.

People will hate you, rate you, break you, & shake you. How strong you stand is what makes you.

"Keeping up the appearance of having all your marbles is hard work, but important."